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你让我彻底失望了
每天看电视剧都是那样的剧情，想不到在现实中竟然发生了，而且而且是在我身上
那是真的吗？我一度在欺骗我自己这不是事实但。。。。。


现在的我觉得好矛盾，大家都好矛盾，不知要如何继续下去，如何去面对，如何去坦白
我的心真的很痛很痛，那深锁在心里的忧郁，担忧，已经被撬开了，现在的我不晓得要如何是好，我可以痛痛快快的哭一场吗？


我真的很希望这是一场梦，睡觉起来大家就会变回平常那样。但是这场梦好长好长没有边界那样，我的心已经开始破裂了，我就快撑不住了，这个家我还待得下去吗？


真的很想逃离这里到一处没人认识我的地方，那里就只有我一个人，不需要担心这所谓的问题，可以自由自在的一个人生活....
但现实中的我根本就放不下~~
我觉得这会持续下去到忍无可忍的地步，崩溃在大家眼前的时候......
到时就会水落石出，到时大家都会想办法弥补，我觉得弥补也是没用了.......


只能感慨这是命运的安排，这是我这一生中要度过的劫吧，
也是大家要度过的一劫吗？
上天是在考验我们的忍耐力吗？
家家都有本难念的经，我家的经越来越难念了~~~~


现在的我要如何是好呢，继续嬉皮笑脸面对你们，还是每天板着臭脸呢？
真的我不知要如何是好，真的~~~
现在的我就好像是个孤儿那样漂泊在汪洋没人要那样心里好痛好痛


人生只有回不去的过去，没有过不去的当下。
上帝只会给你过得去的坎，再不好过的生活，再难过的坎，你咬咬牙，也就过去了。
伤过痛过哭过，然后笑笑，跟自己说，不要委屈，不要难过，这就是生活。
不管遇到了什么烦心事，都不要自己为难自己，该吃吃，该睡睡，过了今天，明天自然会来。

It's May 2012!!!! Everyday is moving so fast~~~

One month had passed so way fast!! OMO!!! 

Just realized that it's MAY 2012 now.........

Went outing with family to Minyak Beku Segenting on 1st of May since all of us are off for one day... It's been long time since i went there, few years back i think. That day we went there and saw an interesting new business they are having..... Feeding the fishes with baby milk bottles!!! LOL Just pay RM3 and you will get a bottle to feed those fishes~~~

Went there for prayers (Toa Peh Gong), my dad touched the fishes there, some say you can get good luck after touching the fishes. Had visit my relatives there, she treat us some homemade yam cakes yummy ^^~~ Granny picked back some noni fruits. I remember this so called mengkudu have medicine purposes. You can find a lot in Sarawak.... As you know medicine must be bitter~~~

Watching the sea~~~i miss my study life~~~ i wanna go for field trip again waaaaaaaaaaa.

Anyhow now it's working life for me and i seems to be immune to my work already... Once reach 5.30 everyday i will be preparing to go home XD...... Sometimes it's just really stress if you stay longer in the office, you will be getting mad with those unfinished work, if you are going to stay there longer than your normal working hours, i will be insane!!!! So my advice for those who are working go to work on time and go home on time too~~~

April~~~~ i had been spending a lot again~~~ On what??? 

Of course on Super Junior haha, my mom is nagging on me everyday, "You are very rich buying albums everyday huh". Feel like wanna reply her "mommy i save by not eating just to buy their album can??? " I am going to get scolded if she knows how i spend my money~~~~~><

Last month i had bought Super Show 3 Photobook which i aimed for long time since last year.Thought it will only arrive this month but the shop have ready stock so she couriered to me after 1 week~~~That day my sis and I was examining the signature on it whether it's real or not... Final result it's PRINTED but with good qualities.. Worth the price LOL .

Then i bought SJ's Don't Don and Sorry Sorry, Oppa Oppa (TW version), SJM Perfection... I know i bought these albums late but better than never ^^ Got Sorry Sorry and Don't Don this week, long time didn't listen to their old songs, so nice~~~~

Can't wait for my Oppa Oppa and Perfection~~~ Hope can arrive by mid of May