明天又是蓝色星期一

明天又要上班了，可能接近年尾了竟然是放假的心情，看着同事个个都去旅游，我也要去！！

不管了我一定要那个两三天的假期去看哥哥！！！

有时候真的很累啊，我需要时间给我放空头脑一下，去冲个电再回来，不然每天这样下去我会精神崩溃啊～～

看我最近在这里发牢骚就可想而知我的心情是如何了，每天在公司要等订单处理好再放进生产才能回家的心情是不好受的！

很累~~~我要放长假!!!

最近真的觉得很累~~

工作上真心疲惫，每天上班只想几点下班，我是不是个不好的员工啊。

而且最近又开始加班工作了，一点都不想，但是要等订单进来没办法了~~~TT 很想放长假啊啊啊啊~~~~可以吗？？赫赫我要去你的店打工，可能这样我会更加开心~~~~

Wisdom Tooth Extraction Day~~~~

Let's start with my wisdom tooth extraction diary LOL

Wake up early in the morning, then waited at the clinic...

Went in the room, they asked me to gargle my mouth then wait for dr to come....

As usual Dr is in a 'rushing' mode haha, his motion very quick LOL. He gave me 2 shots of anesthetic then my whole mouth started to become paralyze. I can't feel anything with it even when they asked me to gargle also i felt hardly to do it.

Then the Minor Oral Surgery started:

Dr took a kind of machinery to 'cut' of my gums i think, within a few minutes he started to use the clam to 'clam' my tooth out like opening a nut shell, i didn't feel anything because i was paralyzed. Within a few minutes too i was surprise that my tooth is OUT!! They put in a small bag for me to bring it home haha, fairy god mother, let's meet tonight XD

In just about 20minutes i am done with my wisdom tooth MOS,Dr said it should be ok because my tooth is in a correct position, not too hard to extract..And there here you go,my tooth is out and i m bleeding like hell now....>

今天和同事的谈话记录

容我在这里发泄一下～～～～我想说我是很珍惜我的妖精朋友们的！！！




今天在办公事隔壁桌的同事问我说我有一个疑问想问很久了不过怕你介意（最后还不是问了lll）


她：“你和某某为什么会那么不投契啊，每次都针对你，你会把他放在心上吗？
（某位同事可能跟他八字不合吧，每次我做的东西都一定被她挑骨头。。。这种叫办公司纠纷啊）


我：“说真的不会也，没时间想那么多......”　这样是对还是错呢？
同事：“那样啊，那你这样是对的”
(我心想什么啊～～）


同事再问：那你这样的性格，朋友是不是很少呢，那种谈得来的朋友”
（我自认是比较自闭的人，人家不找我聊我是不会自动找他们的，所以我觉得公司里大家都一定觉得我是那种孤僻的人或者是骄傲的人，人家要怎么想我没关系我做好我的本分就是了）


我：“是比较少咯，聊得来的只有两三只”　


同事“那你们聊的会比较深入好像分享彼此的事情吗，不是那种八卦的哦？”


我：“八卦比较多咯哈哈”


同事：“哦～～那样哦”


我：“不过我有一班朋友都是在聊ＳＪ的哦，我们还可以聊很多其他的呢”


同事：“那个不同，那是有共同话题”


我就在那边笑ＸＤ其实啊我觉得有共同话题才能更深入了解大家吗不对吗？


过后他再问那你对上司给你的意见你会介意吗，还是你就听听就算，他们要你怎么做就怎么做？有没有听了想把自己提升到他们要的目标？


我：“我是听了他们要什么我就尽量做到最好吧”


他：”哦那可能是你的性格吧，这样是好事”


我：“可能我要转行了，找我有兴趣的工作”


他：“现在是很难找到自己有兴趣的工作的啦，到头来还不是要打回一样的工”


我笑笑没说什么～～～



我真的很开心能认识到大姐Jane，妹子LengNyl依玲, Kristine婉婷,俊秀,小蓝,Eva佩华,燕萍,Ivy, Joanne,淑芳,醴露,韵琪,亿玲,Jamie&Amiko韵心~~~~^^到时我们见面的时候你们知道要怎样应付我了吧哈哈哈，希望我们友谊永固～～～

Super Junior Sexy, Free and Single!!! Got it at last!!!

Have you got a copy of Super Junior latest album ??? Sexy, Free & Single is in my hand now mwahahahha

Bought it from Leesmusic^^ I am so gonna makes sure that the album i buy is counted into Hanteo because i wanna help oppa to get the GDA again!!!

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你让我彻底失望了
每天看电视剧都是那样的剧情，想不到在现实中竟然发生了，而且而且是在我身上
那是真的吗？我一度在欺骗我自己这不是事实但。。。。。


现在的我觉得好矛盾，大家都好矛盾，不知要如何继续下去，如何去面对，如何去坦白
我的心真的很痛很痛，那深锁在心里的忧郁，担忧，已经被撬开了，现在的我不晓得要如何是好，我可以痛痛快快的哭一场吗？


我真的很希望这是一场梦，睡觉起来大家就会变回平常那样。但是这场梦好长好长没有边界那样，我的心已经开始破裂了，我就快撑不住了，这个家我还待得下去吗？


真的很想逃离这里到一处没人认识我的地方，那里就只有我一个人，不需要担心这所谓的问题，可以自由自在的一个人生活....
但现实中的我根本就放不下~~
我觉得这会持续下去到忍无可忍的地步，崩溃在大家眼前的时候......
到时就会水落石出，到时大家都会想办法弥补，我觉得弥补也是没用了.......


只能感慨这是命运的安排，这是我这一生中要度过的劫吧，
也是大家要度过的一劫吗？
上天是在考验我们的忍耐力吗？
家家都有本难念的经，我家的经越来越难念了~~~~


现在的我要如何是好呢，继续嬉皮笑脸面对你们，还是每天板着臭脸呢？
真的我不知要如何是好，真的~~~
现在的我就好像是个孤儿那样漂泊在汪洋没人要那样心里好痛好痛


人生只有回不去的过去，没有过不去的当下。
上帝只会给你过得去的坎，再不好过的生活，再难过的坎，你咬咬牙，也就过去了。
伤过痛过哭过，然后笑笑，跟自己说，不要委屈，不要难过，这就是生活。
不管遇到了什么烦心事，都不要自己为难自己，该吃吃，该睡睡，过了今天，明天自然会来。

It's May 2012!!!! Everyday is moving so fast~~~

One month had passed so way fast!! OMO!!! 

Just realized that it's MAY 2012 now.........

Went outing with family to Minyak Beku Segenting on 1st of May since all of us are off for one day... It's been long time since i went there, few years back i think. That day we went there and saw an interesting new business they are having..... Feeding the fishes with baby milk bottles!!! LOL Just pay RM3 and you will get a bottle to feed those fishes~~~

Went there for prayers (Toa Peh Gong), my dad touched the fishes there, some say you can get good luck after touching the fishes. Had visit my relatives there, she treat us some homemade yam cakes yummy ^^~~ Granny picked back some noni fruits. I remember this so called mengkudu have medicine purposes. You can find a lot in Sarawak.... As you know medicine must be bitter~~~

Watching the sea~~~i miss my study life~~~ i wanna go for field trip again waaaaaaaaaaa.

Anyhow now it's working life for me and i seems to be immune to my work already... Once reach 5.30 everyday i will be preparing to go home XD...... Sometimes it's just really stress if you stay longer in the office, you will be getting mad with those unfinished work, if you are going to stay there longer than your normal working hours, i will be insane!!!! So my advice for those who are working go to work on time and go home on time too~~~

April~~~~ i had been spending a lot again~~~ On what??? 

Of course on Super Junior haha, my mom is nagging on me everyday, "You are very rich buying albums everyday huh". Feel like wanna reply her "mommy i save by not eating just to buy their album can??? " I am going to get scolded if she knows how i spend my money~~~~~><

Last month i had bought Super Show 3 Photobook which i aimed for long time since last year.Thought it will only arrive this month but the shop have ready stock so she couriered to me after 1 week~~~That day my sis and I was examining the signature on it whether it's real or not... Final result it's PRINTED but with good qualities.. Worth the price LOL .

Then i bought SJ's Don't Don and Sorry Sorry, Oppa Oppa (TW version), SJM Perfection... I know i bought these albums late but better than never ^^ Got Sorry Sorry and Don't Don this week, long time didn't listen to their old songs, so nice~~~~

Can't wait for my Oppa Oppa and Perfection~~~ Hope can arrive by mid of May